A portion of this poem cycle was published in Nimrod in 2006. And the cycle of poems was a finalist for the 2006 Pablo Neruda Poem Award, sponsored by Nimrod.
INSIDE THE CIRCLE
Tuesday
this isn’t possible you are not gone
this isn’t livable life without you here
this isn’t true you are not dead
can’t be mustn’t be just talked to you
just days moments ago you sounded
good the smile still in your voice this
isn’t possible, isn’t so, isn’t true, cannot be
tears won’t come, just tiredness and the film,
that film as thick as the black cloth I just hung
over the mirror, the invisible film that slows limbs,
clouds thought, makes it impossible to see
the happy boy next door marching and
playing his tuba, even looking at him
i cannot see him for the film the film the film
i may cut my hair
the film covers my decisions
they are far away somehow outside of me
apart from me
still i think
still i think
i may cut my hair
you won’t know what it looks like
you never saw me with short hair
you won’t see the new book with your painting
on the cover you won’t walk with me anywhere,
not to lunch or museums or to our redheaded friend’s
apartment with the pastel-feathered African birds
the sharing’s done
the mourning’s begun
even as i declare this isn’t possible
you are not gone this isn’t true you are not
dead you are not you are not you are not
gone
Copyright Ysabel de la Rosa, All rights reserved.
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